CHOOSING YOU BELONG.
I was going on my first podcast in a few hours, and not only was it a live recording podcast event, but it was for a program that collectively had over 60 thousand followers. To add to the mix, I was going to be on the podcast alongside a doctor, what he calls, a doctor of breathe. Nerves were certainly prevalent in my body.
I’ve never been one to question my own belonging. I’ve been called weird almost my entire life, and somehow always found ways to turn that word into something I adored representing - unique, powerful, connected, confident. I’ve learned to love all that the word represents, so it wasn’t the doctor title that scared me, (alright maybe a little) it was a sudden rush of teaching a live recording. I’ve taught hundreds, thousands of clients in a number of ways, conferences, groups of hundreds 1:1, companies, and yet somehow, because eventually all eyes close during what I teach, this nervousness felt new. All eyes would closed here too, but this time, there was no messing up because it was being recorded for an international podcast. Did I belong enough to be recorded for all to have access to throughout all of time?
Acknowledging my nerves, some deep breaths and good dance moves later, thankfully on time, my body had relaxed back to center and into the studio I went.
Of course, everything went swimmingly. The hosts of the Almost 30 Nation podcast are rockstars, funny, playful, yet inquisitive and wellness and meditation advocates at the same time, the interview was fun and informative. Not only that but we got a room full of strangers to breathe together deeply into their bodies, activated their energy, opened their hearts, and even stirred some emotions. The room was pulsating with energy, and I was covered in goosebumps, the way I know we’re moving energy and on the right path as a group. The group left the room that evening, honoring their emotions and themselves for just exactly where they were in life in that very moment and all because we tapped into our breath.
Driving home, I couldn’t help but smile. I belong everywhere and nowhere at the same time.
“You only are free when you realize you belong no place — you belong every place — no place at all.” - Maya Angelou